Round 2

We submitted on a little girl Saturday night/Sunday morning (Father's day) Will be at least 30 days before we hear anything since her bulletin was just posted on the 19th of June. We're just waiting and hoping, nothing else we can do. In the mean time I've been doing a little kid room shopping. I'm trying to stick to gender/age neutral items. I ordered the Catalina book rack from Pottery Barn Kids, it arrived today and I LOVE it. John is going to hang it Thursday, can't wait to see how it looks in the room.

Tanyia and Troy have a date for their committee set. On July 16th they find out if they are selected or not. It's nice to have them go through part of this first so we can get a feel for how this piece of the process works. Plus, bonus, I get to do a little nesting at someone else's house...and spend someone else's money on all the cute kid stuff. I'm sure John's thankful.

365 days

So today it's been one year. I'm doing better than I had anticipated. I fully expected to be curled up in bed, box of tissue in one hand, and a pint of Ben and Jerry's in the other in the throws of a day long ugly cry. Instead I got up with John, picked up a little around the house, did some laundry, called the cleaning lady to schedule her in, packed up lunch and am meeting John and Deb at the office. *Change of plans John just called and Deb is taking us out for lunch* even better! Over all feeling much better about things today than yesterday. Must have ran the well dry with all my frustrated tears yesterday.

364 days

In the last week our best friends were selected to go to committee on an almost 3 year old little boy. I'm feeling....well....hmm....unsettled. I'm happy and excited for them, sad and frustrated for us and overall the word unsettled is all I can find to describe my current state. We have not found any children in over 2 months that we want to submit on. Come on delinquent parents, hurry up and screw up already so I can get my child! Kind of harsh I suppose, but seriously let's get on with this.

Tomorrow marks the official one year anniversary of the day we applied to adopt. We were told to expect between one to two years and here we are at the one year point and still waiting. Normal I guess, but it doesn't feel that way.

The VERY first thing Deb and Mike told us was that the true waiting begins after the home study is completed and you submit on those first kids. Yikes! They were right. Everything they told us that would happen and that we would feel has come to fruition.

1.Waiting will be excruciating-check
2.We will argue-check
3.We will question our choices-check
4.We will love each other through this-check
5.We will grow closer-check check

Let's see how tomorrow goes...

News

Apparently no news isn't always good news. We found out last week that we were not selected for any of the children that we submitted our home study on. Keep waiting....