364 days

In the last week our best friends were selected to go to committee on an almost 3 year old little boy. I'm feeling....well....hmm....unsettled. I'm happy and excited for them, sad and frustrated for us and overall the word unsettled is all I can find to describe my current state. We have not found any children in over 2 months that we want to submit on. Come on delinquent parents, hurry up and screw up already so I can get my child! Kind of harsh I suppose, but seriously let's get on with this.

Tomorrow marks the official one year anniversary of the day we applied to adopt. We were told to expect between one to two years and here we are at the one year point and still waiting. Normal I guess, but it doesn't feel that way.

The VERY first thing Deb and Mike told us was that the true waiting begins after the home study is completed and you submit on those first kids. Yikes! They were right. Everything they told us that would happen and that we would feel has come to fruition.

1.Waiting will be excruciating-check
2.We will argue-check
3.We will question our choices-check
4.We will love each other through this-check
5.We will grow closer-check check

Let's see how tomorrow goes...